|"On My Own"|
Éponine walks the streets of Paris and reflects on her reclusive life and her love for Marius, ultimately knowing that he can live without her and that there is no hope of them ever being together.
The lyrics were written by Herbert Kretzmer. The original melody of the song appears in the track L'Air de la Misere, which comes from French concept album and is sung by Fantine.
And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home, without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he's here
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
I walk with him till morning
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!
I love him, I love him, I love him, but only on my own.
Changes between versionsEdit
- In the 1985 version of the musical, the song originally started as follows:
And now I'm all alone again nowhere to go, no one to turn to
I did not want your money, sir, I came out here 'cause I was told to
- In 2012 movie first two verses are cut; the song starts from line: "On my own/ pretending he's beside me..."
- In 2012 movie, the song's order is changed: it appears in the Act I, just before One Day More and just after The Attack on Rue Plumet
- In the Polish version the track is titled Sama tak, which means "So alone" or "Sama wciąż", which means "Still alone".
- In the Spanish production, this song is constantly changing. In the original Spanish version this song was entitled Sóla Yo, which translates to "Only Me." The song was rewritten entirely in the 2010/11 Madrid cast, entitled Sólo Para Mi, meaning "Only For Me". Still other versions in Spanish call this song En Mi Soledad, meaning "In My Loneliness."
- In the 2012 movie the song is sung slower than in most stage versions.
- In the 2012 version, the first two verses are not included.
- In the 10th Anniversary Concert the song opens the 2nd Act.
- In the French production, the song bears title "Mon histoire", which means "My story".